“And I still won’t grow up, I’m a grown *** kid

Swear I should be locked up for stupid (stuff) that I did

But I’m a champion, so I turned tragedy to triumph

Kanye West -Through the Wire (edited for readers)

These lyrics hit home as I think about my progression through life. What is life about honestly?  It’s about learning from your past and making your future that much brighter.  So many lessons have been learned. But I’m still learning.  The biggest/hardest lesson I’ve had to learn is when to let go.  When to let go of guilt, when to let go of grudges and when to let go of people who you think love you but only hold you back in your eternal progression.


Let’s be clear.  I was a tool, a giant tool.  Not the type of tool that knocks doors in the summer and posts pictures of working out and trucks.  But the type of tool that was clueless about anything remotely impormormonrapper2tant to life.  The type of tool who’s top priority was whether or not a poker tournament was going to happen that night, and whether or not I had at least 5 girls “on-my-ling” texting me back.

At least your typical “tool” had money in the bank and something to show for his Tool-dom. I was more or less broke, taking random classes, floating through life without much meaning or direction. The only direction I sought was the directions to the next weekend’s dance party. Instead of spending time studying for the classes my family’s money was being spent on, I was writing rap verses making random YouTube slide shows of myself and the worst part about it, was that I enjoyed it.

James, why are you saying all these terrible things about yourself? Why? … Because my hope is that someone out there can relate. Someone who has found themselves complacent with the small walls they’ve built around themselves. The truth is, on the other side of those walls is a giant Buffet of life that we are all free to take part in. This Buffet has can bring lifelong meaning not only to yourself, but to others as

My heart goes out to all the males that feel stuck.

Drawing closer to God will only improve your life. I promise. It’s never too late to improve; temporally or spiritually.


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